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So. Invitations out. This is relatively exciting....       After putting sex on hold, I've seen a few very good improvements: more quality time, less fuss about getting caught, finally getting the respect I deserve, and... an increased libido. I've never wanted to fuck more in my life !       It's beyond amazing how putting putting it off led to less crying and more... ..spoilage, actually. Now I've suddenly become an extremely bratty princess. Hm.       At least it's finally the other way around.

peace unknown

This cotillion shit is stressing me out.       You're not much help either

will you be the way that i remember you

I really miss JB. There's really no reasoning behind it; I just never got my closure and I don't think it's fair! The craziest thing is, from what I remember I wasn't even that happy, but whenever I look back through entries I was sooo beyond in love. I don't believe it. Probably putting on a mask to make things seem good, esp since JB probably read it anyway. Sigh.       This thing with J really isn't working out. It makes me crazy 'cuz I know we're a good match; maybe not as a couple but as people, definitely. I don't know. We're completely different people and have polar opinions about things, but when we're together we're happy. The problem is, we don't know how to get along when we're with other people...       Pointless. I hate being treated like shit.